out of body
inside mind

i gave advice once given to me
stired up those doubts, kept it all awake
three pages later- a resolution
and i think it's cute

i sat at the top of the stairs in a bathrobe he bought me for my birthday
twiddling something he bought me on vacation
and watching him, everything him, climb the steps
that's when it all makes sense
guess you have to love someone like that first, to understand

been outside my body today, looking in. feeling far away and.. deep in thought. turning twenty wont be as glorious as i imagined at a younger self. but i will still turn, and be changed.
these are the kinds of days i like to write
glazed over and sensitive to sound
making no sense feels better